poems from 08102023-16102023 {bash the overthinking waterwheel}

 

8/10/2023 - 11:43 PM

wish // forever

i wish now would last forever

i wish forever would come faster

i wished we would last forever

i wish forever lasted longer

i wish you could wait forever

i wish forever yon didn't have to

i wish i could see forever

i wish forever didn't blind me

i wish i'1l he yours forever

i wish forever treats us kindly

{i'm not fond of wishing, it's hopeless and pointless and disconnects me from the responsibility of having to do things to get the reward. regardless, bash writes, and bash logs. for the record though, i am quite fond of this poem}

11/10/2023 - 10:05 PM

barren, desolate foggy land

none but a blunt compass in hand

symbols and letters fill you with dread

lost your way inside your head.

{i wrote this the night after what went to be the worst midterm in terms of grade performance i have ever had. seems like bash saw it coming somehow}

{...}

10/10/2023 [unknown time, at night]

i really think
i can do it all

build the high roads,
take the falls

do exactly what want
and precisely what i don't

control my feelings
and let my mind roam

• ~ •

i'm not the guy i think i am
i fail at everything i love
i fail at love
even when i try " the best i can"

i'm not the guy i wish i was
cuz even when i think i'll stand
i fall again and never land
but still my eyes will look above

{these are supposed to be two sister poems, for the most part, the second one was just me trying rhyme schemes (for the most part...) but i think there's a lot to think about in terms of the contrast between the two poems}

14/10/2023 - 2:56 AM

laughing hysterically
i would fly if i could

heart racing
steps pacing
i could almost break a sweat
i'd never want to stop
this is what i'm made for
it really feels lihe

the world is ending

{one of my favourites, seriously, big plot twist at the end gives ir re-read value and reading it again with the plot twist in mind (while letting your mind twist into its darker side) gives it a totally different meaning}

{bonus: the "journal entry" that followed this poem read:

 " (زنفة الكلاب والضفاضع والباعوض (والنمل والجراد والجراثيم والحمام والبط والتماسيح ولأفاعي "}

{ بونس بونس: نود أن نتأسف للبط، آملين أن لا نكون قد جرحنا مشاعرهم}

15/10/2023 [unknown time. night]

you've got a lot to say

but there's no words to write

you've got a lot to feel

but your brain's empty tonight

overwhelmed by the silent multitude of empty thoughts

surrounded by too many lives, hopes and lies

you exist, not live

an observer, watching inside and out

altering nothing but your own very own route

which will go in circles

regardless

{i'm very proud of this poem, it mixes a lot of what i'm good at and a lot of what i'm trying to get good at to get a mix that tells a nice story too}

16/10/2023 [unknown time, night]

same place

same time

two different worlds

a million miles away

like we don't mind the wait

we thrive

{let's just say bash wasn't actually thriving, so he couldn't find the time to pull out his journal, good thing the blue feet blog exists}